Sorry it’s taken me so long to repost this here! I originally posted this on Friday :-P
Here's a first time post of a #FeelgoodFriday!
So, this is just another picture of a chick in her underpants (and
super cute lace crop top bralet thingy thank you very much) to grace
Facebook like thousands of others, but, it's not.
loss journey has been a long and hard one (giggity). And the mental is
just as tough as the physical. This picture is scary. Like, shit your
pants and hide under the covers like a
five year old during a thunderstorm scary. I posted one before, a
little while back, and I was in shorts and a sports bra, but I feel
especially exposed in this one. Which is why I'm posting it.
feel exposed cause after losing so much weight, I find myself far
harder on myself. I find myself more critical, more hateful, more
hurtful to myself. What wasn't a problem before is a problem now. Oh
hey stretch marks! Nice to see ya hanging around lose skin
(ba-dum-TISS...get it...HANGING around cause it's...skin...yeah). And I
found myself hating my body more than ever. I was becoming neurotic
about exercise and counting calories, to the point where I felt like I
was slipping into unhealthy behaviors in the opposite direction...like
when I was in highschool again giving my senior friends money to buy me
diet pills and not sleeping and eating direction. But I saw it, and I
saw it was heading that way, and I knew I had to get my head back in
check and refocus.
Focus on being healthy. Focus on giving my
body good nutrition and fuel and exercising in healthy amounts and not
living a life glued to the scale and constantly afraid. Don't get me
wrong, keeping track of progress is great, staying on top of shit and
being aware is great, but obsessing about it and what the numbers say,
and "OH MY GOD I HATE MYSELF I ATE A COOKIE, I WANT TO DIE", can and
WILL drive you insane.
I feel like my head is back on track
again. I've been resetting and refocusing on what I put in my body to
give it the nutrition and the fuel it needs to keep progressing and to
going on my journey. It's not even about weight loss anymore. It's
about losing fat, and gaining muscle and energy and strength. I started
a new nutritional system over a month ago and it has really made me
feel amazing! It has given me new motivation and drive!
Feeling good physically helps to keep your head in check too! And
while, I see things I don't like...like a lot of things haha...I have
made PROGRESS. I have worked really, really hard and I am proud of how
far I have come. And I will continue to be proud of the skin I am in
now and as I progress in the future. It's the only body I have, and
I've put it through a lot. And it deserves to feel loved and
appreciated for all it has carried me through ❤.
So there you guys go! I hope you all are feeling good this Friday and
if not, I hope you are taking steps to help your mind and body feel
better. Cause everyone deserves to love themselves 😘.
Also, I can't be serious taking a mirror underwear pic, COME ON, I'm so lame hahaha...super cute bralet is cute thoughhhhhh